HAIIRO NO GINKA Vol 52

Written by Nao & Risu

Mu No Koufuku, Sanretsusha To Kubi

Happiness of Nothing The Assembled Neck

Recently, the chances of meeting fans directly have increased,

I was moved by directly looking eye-to-eye and communicating [with the fans]

It was a valuable experience, thank you.

Ever since the release of the new album, it’s been a while since we have exposed a lot but

as expected of me there many things that are too (blindingly) bright...

And so for the time being, I shall go home to the darkness.

I don’t know how many years from now but if I want to meet everyone, I shall come out.

But until that time, I shall put words in the newsletter only.

What everyone said about the album was so inconsistent/different from each other, I laughed.

But this is what DIR EN GREY is.

As an attendant to this journey, would you like to go along with the nightmare?

I am writing this on August 4 but,

In reality, I have fallen several times in July: the self who wants to change and the self who can’t change.

I want to be the person who changes for others and not for myself.

I am the devil who does not think of others. Almost to the point that I really wished my childish self dead.

It was a period where I was nauseous. My words slowly become lies, until not one of the words are left.

But definitely, I will never give up.

I swear it on my heart/soul.

I want to release a poetry collection...intensely...however.

It might doze off (be put off) in the reality of having no time at all.

As a vocalist, I noticed that I have almost reached perfection.

But of course, maybe from the top of the cliff I neglect/forget/tread on my wound-filled hands and fall into the bottom of the ravine.

I am such a masochist.

When I come back to Japan, I want to move...to Kyoto or something.

A shoddy apartment would be fine.

I want to live at the level of people befitting me.

I think I usually evaluate myself as such.

I am trash, a human being of the lowest level who can’t understand the hearts of childish people.

But with an effort of becoming at least a human being.

The album that was born out of hard work, to the point of drawing out blood, is my all, my body, my life’s meaning.

Next time, if I still exist, I will risk my life and pour in everything, I plan to really erase life.

Life expectancy(long-life) has somehow become better

Until I am out of life I will be human and hope to properly create my living proof.

For me, there are things that I want to create and protect with my life.

And if I don’t devote myself to that, then to what shall I devote myself to?

Until it becomes beautiful once again...

(next page)

Songs leaked, lyrics posted on websites and, etc.; and so many other things but

There’s nothing that will come out of it so I'll leave it alone...it is something I can't do anything about.

But then, company-wise, the work and the budget also seems to be divided.

Because of it, they want to use the time and so on for other things but, they understand though.

What the hell is that...(Laugh)

I think I may have pushed myself too much.

I am probably a bit tired...

Personally, from this time, I think I want to lock myself spiritually in the basement.

For the mean time, I think I will just meet everyone only at lives so,

if I do come out in front of everyone aside from that case,

please think of it as a situation wherein I was forced to going out for some reason.

Newsletters and fanclub-related (events) are different though.

I don’t want to put out words nor show myself in front of people other than

those who understand and purely love us.

That is the real Kyo of DIR EN GREY.

It’s not that I have a lot of special things to say but,

I sometimes drop words, if you could feel anything from my lyrics then I would be happy.

So until the next time, at this place.

August 7, from Holland.

http://www.orchestrated-chaos.com

Mu No Koufuku, Sanretsusha To Kubi Happiness of Nothing The Assembled Neck

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